One day that i dreamed of one year before...
So its around 01:00 at night, iam working night shift at my Rehabilitation unit at the hospital and it is a pretty quiet night. Tommorrow iam going to participate for the first time in a Marathon. Which i will take some time now to explain to you like an original greek that is coming from the ancient Greece (490BC) when after the battle in Marathonas (yes it is a city near Athens) Fidipides, an ancient athenian warrior runned 42,195klm to transfer the news of the victory to Athens.
Enough with the ancient history...lets go back to my story...
One year ago i start running...like out of nowhere...i just woke up one day and i said iam going to start running and do something for my health..maybe because 30 were close or i had a little bit of extra kgs...maybe because i had a new boyfriend.. You know how this works..
Anyway, i started by not being able to breath after 1klm and this scared me really much regarding to my age and that iam not a smoker, drinker or anything else...But soon i start feeling better and better...
Took some advices from friends that are runners themselves and manage to reach 3 klms..i was so persistent , i was doing it for 1 month every morning..and then 5klm and again every morning..
2 months afterwards, i went on the weight scale and because the result i wanted was not there as i was expected by being really harsh and mean to my self i just gave up, i would pamper my self with the most tasty food and i would try to be more active by not buying a car when i moved to Iceland (December...yeap its freezing).
I said at some point to my self before i quit ,that maybe next year you will go to a marathon just to run the 5 or maybe 10.
My boyfriend yes that new one, took last year 42 klm marathon rolling with his wheelchair in less than 4 hours and except on how awesome and crazy this is, it also helped a lot SEM organization (Spinal Cord Injury) in Iceland to raise money and make more things for its members.
After this, in a dinner in between some fun and some seriousness, a challenge dropped...Lets go next year for the 10klms..
I said yeap just for fun and soon i found my self being stressed with the idea that i should start training again...
I tried different diets again, personal trainers, websites, gyms lots of stuff...
Iam still trying to be honest... Getting lost in between summer vacations, nursing shifts, being tired, stressed , house keeping, icelandic lessons...
Noone is forcing me to go tommorrow to this Marathon...noone is forcing me to do any kind of good timing or anything..
The timing is really wrong because its the morning after a night shift and before a double shift from 15:00 til 8:00 the next day..
But...how much longer with the excuses?is it really pampering to give to your body so much relaxation that its actually lazyness and so much craving food that its actually emotionally eating or is it close to self destroy?
Iam demanding when it comes to the training of my patients in order to achieve their best possible independence and go home why am i soft with my self?
Sometimes iam thinking i wish i had someone to slap me in the face all the previous years of non exersise and wrong nutrition. Not that i know what its right now but iam a hell lot more concerned about how iam treating my self.
New challenge tommorrow- Status: Accepted!
Ps. Internal voice: maybe next year we can go to 21klms....
Enough with the ancient history...lets go back to my story...
One year ago i start running...like out of nowhere...i just woke up one day and i said iam going to start running and do something for my health..maybe because 30 were close or i had a little bit of extra kgs...maybe because i had a new boyfriend.. You know how this works..
Anyway, i started by not being able to breath after 1klm and this scared me really much regarding to my age and that iam not a smoker, drinker or anything else...But soon i start feeling better and better...
Took some advices from friends that are runners themselves and manage to reach 3 klms..i was so persistent , i was doing it for 1 month every morning..and then 5klm and again every morning..
2 months afterwards, i went on the weight scale and because the result i wanted was not there as i was expected by being really harsh and mean to my self i just gave up, i would pamper my self with the most tasty food and i would try to be more active by not buying a car when i moved to Iceland (December...yeap its freezing).
I said at some point to my self before i quit ,that maybe next year you will go to a marathon just to run the 5 or maybe 10.
My boyfriend yes that new one, took last year 42 klm marathon rolling with his wheelchair in less than 4 hours and except on how awesome and crazy this is, it also helped a lot SEM organization (Spinal Cord Injury) in Iceland to raise money and make more things for its members.
After this, in a dinner in between some fun and some seriousness, a challenge dropped...Lets go next year for the 10klms..
I said yeap just for fun and soon i found my self being stressed with the idea that i should start training again...
I tried different diets again, personal trainers, websites, gyms lots of stuff...
Iam still trying to be honest... Getting lost in between summer vacations, nursing shifts, being tired, stressed , house keeping, icelandic lessons...
Noone is forcing me to go tommorrow to this Marathon...noone is forcing me to do any kind of good timing or anything..
The timing is really wrong because its the morning after a night shift and before a double shift from 15:00 til 8:00 the next day..
But...how much longer with the excuses?is it really pampering to give to your body so much relaxation that its actually lazyness and so much craving food that its actually emotionally eating or is it close to self destroy?
Iam demanding when it comes to the training of my patients in order to achieve their best possible independence and go home why am i soft with my self?
Sometimes iam thinking i wish i had someone to slap me in the face all the previous years of non exersise and wrong nutrition. Not that i know what its right now but iam a hell lot more concerned about how iam treating my self.
New challenge tommorrow- Status: Accepted!
Ps. Internal voice: maybe next year we can go to 21klms....
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